Surprising feeling
I lay down in my bed as its dark outside. I wonder if he misses me as much as I miss him. I look at the the bright stars through my window and I lose myself in golden memories. I wish he was next to me right now. I don't crave sex neither I do need him because i feel lonely. I only want him right here because he makes me feel better at the end of a long day. He knows how to make me laugh when I'm too tired to talk and made me feel so alive while I'm standing like a corpse. I love the way he tells silly jokes. I would feel bless to see his smile as I am too sad to drop off but he only thing i really need right now is to hear his giggle. Everything become suddenly alright when his voice soothes my mind and heart.
I don't know why am I talking about him, i thought my heart was belong to someone else ?!??..
Wednesday 17 February 2016
True love
Fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you. Who understands you even in the madness. Someone who helps you and guides you, someone who is your support, your hope. Someone that always be there when you need them. Fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight. Fall in love with someone who misses you the most and always wish to have you. Fall in love with someone who makes you realize three things ; one, that home is not a place, but a feeling. Two, that the time is not measured by a clock, but by moment and memory. And three, that heartbeats are not heard, but felt and shared. Do not fall in love only with a body or face or with the idea of beeing in love.
- (me when over think things lol)
Fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you. Who understands you even in the madness. Someone who helps you and guides you, someone who is your support, your hope. Someone that always be there when you need them. Fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight. Fall in love with someone who misses you the most and always wish to have you. Fall in love with someone who makes you realize three things ; one, that home is not a place, but a feeling. Two, that the time is not measured by a clock, but by moment and memory. And three, that heartbeats are not heard, but felt and shared. Do not fall in love only with a body or face or with the idea of beeing in love.
- (me when over think things lol)
Saturday 13 February 2016
“Love Myself”
Hello and a very good day to all of you. This is my 2nd posts and I choose to post about myself.
My real name is Mimi Nor Zalikha. Most of my friends and family known me as Ikha. My teachers called me Mimi, idk why they called me that. probably bcs it is my first name, lol. But I preferably called Joelle, because I’m a witch. Lol, jk.I called myself Joelle bcs I got my interest on name Jo..actually, I want to call myself Jo, yeah, I love that name since I was 9, but I know Jo belongs to boys name so I edited it a little and and I created Joelle, as it was the nearest name that heard like Jo :) I don’t even know if I had heard Joelle’s name before,um, maybe or never idk but I love it!
I am 14 years old mom and I have two kids, lol, jk, I am just a cute teenage girl with chubby cheeks, yay! Im a little rough than other girls but I never felt like strangers. Sometimes I acted like a boy. With short, cap and T-shirt. I love beeing myself and ignore what the world said. I am 14 and officially turns 15 on December 13th. I was born in the year 2001 in Kuantan and I raised up in Kuantan with my family. I’ve got 5 sisters and 2 brothers. They are nice but sometimes they act like witches. Yes babe, bad witches.
I loves to eat,sleep and play games a lot. Kind of girl who wake up early every morning but still lay on bed while playing games on my ipad.. My fav subject is English but I’m a terrible english user. I swear. I am so lame, dull but my friends called me Ikha Nary which mean Ikha dictionary and I felt like wtf they were thinking? I am so bad at English and they call me dictionary. It was a stupid name to be called but they were my friends. Need so much patient, hahah lol. Yeah. Our joke seems rude to peoples around who heard our conversations but for us, it is one of the reason why we could be friends. It means a lot for us.
I have two amazing best friends but one of them is a witch like me. And thats would be Syamiera Ilyana. She's a witch, just like me. We always do something weird like spinning around the class. Well, it is weird because we are 15. We always hang out in front of our class and waiting for our crush walking next to our class. And when its happen, we called each others with our crushes name and thats the best part. And their friends will shout their names and we run away from them HAHAH! And another best friends is Yasmin, we called her Doraemon because she looks exactly like Doraemon and she always be there for you when you need her. Always. She did almost thing I ask her to do. Last year, we need to do some paperworks for our Geogarphy and History subjects called Keja Kursus. We need to do it for our marks in final exams. She did it for me. I almost fainted bcs i didnt know how to do it and she helped me almost everything. To be honest, i never met someone that will do something hard for me. I really appreciate everything she have did, thankyou Doraemon 💕
I also have the most amazing senior ever met, Fariz Amar.. He's a part of my life too. I dont know how school wil be fun for me without him. He seems bad. I swear, when the first time i saw him at school, in my mind, i always thought he will never going to be a part of me even a friend. But who knows, only God know anything. We could be a friends, not just a friend then, a family. Started from theatre last year. Idk how to say it, there were too much fun with him. I guaranteed that i will never forget memories we created together. Euw lol, this is too sweet to be haha.
So ya I think this is it. Im sorry if this kind of bored post to read. I will make a new one later when I get enough time to compose it. Thankyou for reading this, I love you guys, bye :) xoxo Joelle
Hello and a very good day to all of you. This is my 2nd posts and I choose to post about myself.
My real name is Mimi Nor Zalikha. Most of my friends and family known me as Ikha. My teachers called me Mimi, idk why they called me that. probably bcs it is my first name, lol. But I preferably called Joelle, because I’m a witch. Lol, jk.I called myself Joelle bcs I got my interest on name Jo..actually, I want to call myself Jo, yeah, I love that name since I was 9, but I know Jo belongs to boys name so I edited it a little and and I created Joelle, as it was the nearest name that heard like Jo :) I don’t even know if I had heard Joelle’s name before,um, maybe or never idk but I love it!
I am 14 years old mom and I have two kids, lol, jk, I am just a cute teenage girl with chubby cheeks, yay! Im a little rough than other girls but I never felt like strangers. Sometimes I acted like a boy. With short, cap and T-shirt. I love beeing myself and ignore what the world said. I am 14 and officially turns 15 on December 13th. I was born in the year 2001 in Kuantan and I raised up in Kuantan with my family. I’ve got 5 sisters and 2 brothers. They are nice but sometimes they act like witches. Yes babe, bad witches.
I loves to eat,sleep and play games a lot. Kind of girl who wake up early every morning but still lay on bed while playing games on my ipad.. My fav subject is English but I’m a terrible english user. I swear. I am so lame, dull but my friends called me Ikha Nary which mean Ikha dictionary and I felt like wtf they were thinking? I am so bad at English and they call me dictionary. It was a stupid name to be called but they were my friends. Need so much patient, hahah lol. Yeah. Our joke seems rude to peoples around who heard our conversations but for us, it is one of the reason why we could be friends. It means a lot for us.
I have two amazing best friends but one of them is a witch like me. And thats would be Syamiera Ilyana. She's a witch, just like me. We always do something weird like spinning around the class. Well, it is weird because we are 15. We always hang out in front of our class and waiting for our crush walking next to our class. And when its happen, we called each others with our crushes name and thats the best part. And their friends will shout their names and we run away from them HAHAH! And another best friends is Yasmin, we called her Doraemon because she looks exactly like Doraemon and she always be there for you when you need her. Always. She did almost thing I ask her to do. Last year, we need to do some paperworks for our Geogarphy and History subjects called Keja Kursus. We need to do it for our marks in final exams. She did it for me. I almost fainted bcs i didnt know how to do it and she helped me almost everything. To be honest, i never met someone that will do something hard for me. I really appreciate everything she have did, thankyou Doraemon 💕
I also have the most amazing senior ever met, Fariz Amar.. He's a part of my life too. I dont know how school wil be fun for me without him. He seems bad. I swear, when the first time i saw him at school, in my mind, i always thought he will never going to be a part of me even a friend. But who knows, only God know anything. We could be a friends, not just a friend then, a family. Started from theatre last year. Idk how to say it, there were too much fun with him. I guaranteed that i will never forget memories we created together. Euw lol, this is too sweet to be haha.
So ya I think this is it. Im sorry if this kind of bored post to read. I will make a new one later when I get enough time to compose it. Thankyou for reading this, I love you guys, bye :) xoxo Joelle
Thursday 11 February 2016
Missing A Part Of Me
I couldn't say a word. Losing him. My best friend ever was the hardest thing that hit on me. Thinking every second we have spend together was hard. Every time I opened up my photos and saw a bunch of his selfies with his weird face, i felt a little lost.
It started when he got his new partner a.k.a couple. At first, I am okay with it. But suddenly a few weeks later he told me that she dumped him. The fire started in my heart. I seriously felt like want to kill that bitch using a sharp samurai sword. I told him to move on and never looked back. He seems so hurted and said okay but a few weeks later he did. They were getting back together. I was so mad and told him to left her for his own good but he don't want to. So i left him. I left beacause I don't want to see he suffering again because of that bitch. I know he was so in loved with her but I know she going to hurted him again and again.
I used to thing the worst feeling in the world was losing a boyfriend but I was wrong. The worst feeling is the moment you realized that you've lose your bestfriend. And if he read this, i want him to know that I never meant to let this beautiful meaningful relationships ended. Never. I always want our relationship last till our last breath. But its a fate. I tried to said i'm sorry but i'm too scared. Scared if you are not going to reply and hate me, i really want to say that I'm sorry and I miss you.
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